Little Footprints

I think I'm going to try to continue my blog posts about my reflections. This week, I was struck with the question "Why do we not care for our employees or value our employees like the rest of the world does"? There are countries that value their elderly, where as, we simply throw ours away. Our culture is overworked, yet some cultures value a break in the middle of the day. In taking this week's  survey , I'm a little bit of everywhere with it--it was hard not to change answers - when there are so many biases in today's culture. The one thing I'm still thinking about is the Uncertainty Avoidance.  Why aren't we more careful with those major decisions, we enjoy risks - why is that? Maybe it's because of our founding fathers taking that risk so long ago to venture out into the unknown against England? So many things can be written about Culture.  One thing is certain, we have learn to live in harmony and be tolerant of other cultur...

It's was Tuesday morning.  I have been so frustrated with my job lately - I have had so many "Don't they see" moments.  I work very hard, I rarely say 'no'. Why do I feel like they (management, my bosses) don't like me? One of my bosses advised me to read the book "Know Your Value" by Mika Brzezinksi.   At first, I was a little taken back with why is he giving me a self-help book.  I know MY value, I wanna know why they don't?  Then I started to read it. A quote that stuck with me through out me reading it was: "Women have been brought up on emotion.  Feeling loved by your bosses, doesn't mean you are  being valued." Yup, there it is--black and white.  Was I really concerned about being liked rather than being valued? It's such a good book--since Tuesday, I stopped apologizing for things--yeah, totally stopped saying sorry for work things. I mean, obviously I will apologize if the situation warrants it, bu...

Yup, you heard it Quid Pro Quo - heard this phrase WAY TO MUCH this week. I used to only associate this with sexual harassment, now in the media, it is way more prevalent with the impeachment process going on and this phrase being thrown around... Then I realized, I got hit with it. I wanted to throw the employees in my office a nice holiday party this year.  We have all worked hard and I thought what a way to end it.  Upper management told me sure-----but first I need to get a project done (which takes about 24 man hours to complete) before I leave for Thanksgiving break.  If I get THAT done, I can throw the party. It all comes down to one activity. One report and I'm afraid I'm going to let my team down.  But here I am, rocking this report on a Sunday so I can accomplish this goal. Yeah, it's a goal, right??!!  Or is it Quid Pro Quo? With that said, I decided to take the survey with my leadership team in mind. I wonder if I should share this w...

This week's survey, I scored highest on Duty Ethics . I was content with this as it validated: I follow the rules and do what I think I am supposed to do when facing ethical dilemmas I focus on fulfilling my responsibilities and doing what I think is the right thing to do. After I took the survey, I was dealt with a dilemma. Should I submit an application with what I know to be true (and correct and right) or submit the application with how my boss says to do it?  Find out next week....I will update you to see what happens. ____ I updated the application to what my boss said to--and we were actually able to correct the information that I saw.  I'm still torn as to if it was REALLY the correct information--I do have it documented that this is why I did what I did.

Wow, another week accomplished and I'm soooo drained! However, I really liked the fact that I was able to reflect on what I learned with how I am professionally and where I "fit" in at church. I took the questionnaire with my job in mind.  It's definitely different than my life as a follower in church. I was kinda proud of myself - I was EXEMPLARY ! Really, YESSSSSS. Woot! Then I watched this   video. So yes, I'm exemplary at work---but personally (and in church) guess what, I "alienated" myself. I have been so disengaged in church because I put my career first. MIND.BLOWN. My question----why do I have two followers living in me.  Why can't I be just one? I went to church just last Sunday - the first time in FOREVER.  Now I'm watching videos on what kind of follower I am.  Woah.

This week, I have struggled with a dilemma.  I brought it up to my senior leadership to only be told to "leave him alone...he wakes up at 5a..." I brought up something that is losing a company money AND possibly not treating all employee(s) equally. I am at a stall right now.  So this is all I 'm going to write about.  PLUUUUS I haven't received any surveys back :-( Chapter 11 Survey Results Let's hope I find a good resolution to this dilemma I have soon.

Today, while I was driving to Urgent Care (I fell---hard...in a parking garage), I decided to stop by my parents to stay hi...and well, who doesn't want their momma to look at their injuries? I wasn't there too long--but long enough to hear all of the terms of endearment my dad used on my mother.  "Honey..."; "Sweetheart..." . The funny thing is, I answered to all of them--conversations meant for my mother. My dad laughed and said "I was talking to your mom".... My parents used these words with me (and my sister) growing up--how would I not know he wasn't talking to me?  The point that I'm getting across--I'm 41 years old and I still like being called "honey".