Fail to Plan--You Plan to Fail...PERIOD

I don't even know where to start except that I need to do better.

Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Day One!

It's the Weekend!

This is the time where I struggle.

Struggle with the food - it's the weekend!!

Let's hope I continue on this very long journey for the rest of my life.

A Quiet Reminder

My marriage and the tribulations it has gone through is not 'new news'.  It is known I was unfaithful and continued to be unfaithful.  It is also known that my husband forgave me and we continue to grow in a new love for each other.  I make a choice every day to love my husband and my family.  He chooses to forgive me and teaches me unconditional love, daily.  My husband loves me as Jesus does (maybe not as much - but pretty darn close!)

Just the other day, my Facebook Timehop reminded me that I struggled 3 years ago.  A post requesting prayer for my kids and myself.  Another stated getting rid of 250 lbs. and even another reminded  me that something terrible had happened between Christmas and New Years 2011.

I asked my husband if he re-called what happened 3 years ago, he couldn't remember either.  

I literally racked my brain for awhile wondering what in the world could have happened and I got nothing.  The thought quickly left my mind as I know that's not where we are now. Whatever it was, it must have not been too bad because we are still married.

In Sunday School today, we were reviewing the Book of Joel and it hit me.  Right there, in Chapter 2:25:

I will repay you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter, my great army, which I sent against you.

That's it!! 

God repaid us with helping us 'let go' of this horrible time.  Can you believe it.  I can't even re-call the argument, the situation that lead me to post such vivid status updates.  

God also provided me the restraint to stop posting life's awful details and he taught me that those thoughts need to be between my husband and myself.

So there it is.  

Another testimony how God continues to bless my life and he will/can bless your life too.

Happy Birthday to Me - Commited

As I turn 37 today, I realize I haven't accomplished as much as I wanted to.

By the time my father was 38, he was retired from the military and moved his family across the country back to Kansas where I would live the past 22 years.

I always dreamed of living in a beautiful house, my kids going to good schools and me being a stay at home mom.  Reality is, my house is home, my kids have learned to adapt to many different situations that I never in a million years would put them through and I work - in a job I really do enjoy.  I have a career in Human Resources and couldn't imagine doing anything else.

I've been with the same man since I was 19 and yes, we may not have the life we envisioned many years ago, it's OK.  We have the life we have.  We love.  That is what we do best.  That is what our children learn from us the most.

I told myself about 5 years ago, I would never be a 'big girl' again.  Well at 37, I AM a big girl and I'm OK with it.  Just OK.

I'm not making any resolutions as I'm not great at sticking to resolutions, but what I can tell you is I'm going to make goals.

My first goal(s) starting Monday (who likes to NOT eat on their birthday??) is meal planning.  I want to plan to eat healthy for as many days as I can.  I'm going to remind myself it's not hard.  

My second goal--I will walk/exercise 10,000 steps per day.

I will use MyFitnessPal along with my VivoFit to help track my every move.

It's not hard, it won't be hard - it can't be hard.  I will do this.

In addition to these 2 small goals, I plan to commit to a verse this year.  I know I won't be able to memorize it right off the bat, but I plan to remind myself of it's meaning daily.

This year's verse for me to commit to will be 1 Thessalonians 5:15-16


15 Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else.

16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

Pray with me this year.  Commit to a verse for the year and stick with it.
Just 3 things.  Minute-by-minute, day-by-day, week-by-week, etc.  

That's all I want to do.