Lent 2017

What to give up?

No.  I want to give in. I want to use this time to grow closer to Him.

Shouldn't I want to always grow closer to God?  Yes!! I always want to be that mom who has it all together with work, kids, husband and church.

Yes. I realize how I said that---

Work came first and church comes that. Wow.  All the more reason to start this.

Soooo....starting tomorrow, I plan to blog daily through Lent to document this journey through to the Resurrection. 

God, I know you need to me to be more disciplined.  I haven't lived up to that promise. But I will try. 

God, please be with me as you always are. But let me put YOU first instead of last. 

God, forgive me. I am on my way back, I promise.

God, please surround me with other Christians so I am protected from this world.

God, lead me to be the wife and mother you intended me to be.  Let me the daughter, sister and friend I need to be.

God, I am ready.

I know I am.

Steady My Heart

Sooooo...here I am for the first time this year.  I hope to write many more blog posts this year.

After the events of last week: After numerous trips to the ER regarding my SVT, I had an ablation to my heart on Valentine's Day-on a valve that I had fixed when I was born.  It was a bittersweet moment for my family and I.  My mom was there once again for me.  I could write a whole blog dedicated to that woman.  She was my first friend and is my biggest cheerleader.  I love her. 

I jump on the blog-bus and think I'm going to get on it and ride it for awhile and then I fall off.  I fall off every bus I'm on: the weight-loss bus, the organized mom bus, and the good ole church bus.

What I'm missing in my life is accountability.  I don't know why I am not strong enough to just 'do it'....but I need to.  I mean, I NEED TO.

I am a Christian.  I haven't been to church in a while and for that I am very embarrassed.  I am one of 'those' Christians.  I don't want to be.  It wasn't what I intended--it's definitely not what I intended for my family.  How do you go back?  I honestly don't care what people think, but I do, I will always care what people think--but most of all, I worry about what God thinks.  I keep picturing a parent shaking His head in disappointment.  Every given Sunday, I battle through this.  

And then this song...

If this is your first time reading this blog, I ask (or beg) you to continue to support me.  Make sure I continue to make correct decisions.  Decisions for my health, decisions for my spirit.

I am a good friend, I have had years of experience of not what to do in a friendship--and believe I will help you be accountable just as you help me be accountable.  I'm here for ya!

 

Steady My Heart, God.