Little Footprints

What to give up? No.  I want to give in. I want to use this time to grow closer to Him. Shouldn't I want to always grow closer to God?  Yes!! I always want to be that mom who has it all together with work, kids, husband and church. Yes. I realize how I said that--- Work came first and church comes that. Wow.  All the more reason to start this. Soooo....starting tomorrow, I plan to blog daily through Lent to document this journey through to the Resurrection.  God, I know you need to me to be more disciplined.  I haven't lived up to that promise. But I will try.  God, please be with me as you always are. But let me put YOU first instead of last.  God, forgive me. I am on my way back, I promise. God, please surround me with other Christians so I am protected from this world. God, lead me to be the wife and mother you intended me to be.  Let me the daughter, sister and friend I need to be. God, I am ready. I know I am.

Sooooo...here I am for the first time this year.  I hope to write many more blog posts this year. After the events of last week: After numerous trips to the ER regarding my SVT, I had an ablation to my heart on Valentine's Day-on a valve that I had fixed when I was born.  It was a bittersweet moment for my family and I.  My mom was there once again for me.  I could write a whole blog dedicated to that woman.  She was my first friend and is my biggest cheerleader.  I love her.  I jump on the blog-bus and think I'm going to get on it and ride it for awhile and then I fall off.  I fall off every bus I'm on: the weight-loss bus, the organized mom bus, and the good ole church bus. What I'm missing in my life is accountability.  I don't know why I am not strong enough to just 'do it'....but I need to.  I mean, I NEED TO. I am a Christian.  I haven't been to church in a while and for that I am very embarrassed.  I am one of 't...