Little Footprints

Ok.  This is a question I often ask myself, especially  lately.  I keep thinking it's going to just appear to me and I guess I'm a little impatient.  I think I am more concerned for my husband. Here's why. For 5 years, my husband was a Youth Director/Teacher/Pastor (sort of). He dedicated his Tuesday Evenings and endless weekends to the youth at our church. We hit a huge bump,ok a 'brick wall'.  We came to our pastor for help and at  the time,  and was denied assistance.  In turn,we hit rock bottom in our marriage and our ministry was taken away from us. It has been over a year and still my husband is like a 'bitter old man' about it. How do you help a person  that won't do the 'Christian' thing and forgive and move on.  He seems to not take his own advice and hope for a new start. God does have plans for him,for us, yet he doesn't see it. I want us to be on fire for God once again, yet I get brought down by this negative ene...

Today celebrates 1 month home. I've had much more adapting than I thought I would need. I'll tell ya, before I thought this 'stay at home mom' would be a piece of cake. Boy was I wrong! I have absolutely no free time (very limited) and the time I do have, I spend at the gym or the library (I know, big hot spots, huh). I am learning how to manage my time better and overall run my house as efficient I can. It's been hard and I'm still shocked that I'm not working, but if this is what He wants for me or thinks I need, than I guess I'll have to abide. :-) My oldest, is at church camp this week and I have maybe talked to her for maybe 20 minutes the whole week--I call every day, only to get a few words and an "I gotta go, can I call you later"....well this morning, she called and we talked for a whole 10 minutes! I can't wait to see her tonight when she sings at the talent show and I get to spend the afternoon tomorrow with her as I play in ...

... I've missed you...It's been so long since I've seen you, I forgot what you looked like.  I hope you stay for a long time (but not too long, cuz I'd like to visit with your neighbor Ms. 140s in the future). I did it, I made it to 159.6 lbs. (34 lbs. lost since January) ( I know that's more than 159, but it doesn't say 1 sixty something, so I'm happy

On Sunday, our Pastor asked for volunteers to write their testimony (200 words or less)--I wanted to raise my hand, but didn't (at first--I told the Pastor I would e-mail it, after the service). Well here it is.  Short and sweet (kind of).  There's so much more to this story, but here are the facts :-)  (and yes, I'm 142 words over the limit--this is hard!!!) My husband and I both grew up without Christ in our lives. I grew up in a loving home, we knew of God, however, I didn't 'talk to Him' until years later. My husband and I were married for about 4 years, when we decided to have children. We agreed our kids would grow up in the church--however, it wasn't something that happened overnight. Our daughter was a little over a year old and I saw that Parents as Teachers was holding a play group at a church and decided to take her there to the playgroup.  That church was so inviting, I even talked with the Pastor, he invited me to church that next Su...

My husband and I attended our church's "Working Class" Bible Study today, something we haven't done in quite some time. During the study, both my husband and I felt comfortable enough to reach out to these people we once called family, after all, this IS where our journey began 7 years ago. After we confessed our sins, so to speak, it was evident that these people, this church, loved us and has forgiven us.  I can honestly say, something changed in my husband and I today.  We are on the road to recovery, on the road back to where we came from, on the road home. I can't express how elated I am that these bonds, these burdens, are now broken. I can't wait to see what the Lord, our God, has in store for me, my husband, our marriage and ultimately our family. Thanks be to God. For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope.  Jeremiah 29:11.

My first week home was good--I still feel like I'm on vacation, but it's OK.  I was really worried that since I was home that I would eat more..for the first time in a long time, I actually had a 2 lb. loss which brings my total pounds lost to 31 (since January).  I have also had a lot of time to reflect on what kind of household I want to raise my kids in--I thought I had it figured out, but this past week, I am on a strong mission to bring order to this house.  From being organized to nutrition, to limiting TV time to even how I interact with my family, it's all going to change.  I went this morning to buy curriculum supplies (in another words, I bought some blocks and finger paints, lol) as I'm going to do some preliminary preschool things with Caleb this fall--I also checked out a book full of neat cheap science projects to do with Bailey for the remainder of the summer.  My husband and I have an exciting 'staycation' coming up in a few weeks, which will...

This is my last 'week' of work.  June 30th is my last day.  I am super excited for this opportunity, yet I'm super depressed about it at the same time.  This was the longest I ever had a job (at the same place), the people here are great and best of all--I loved my job. So yes, I always have to go back to God, during these times.  What does He have in store for me?  What am I really destined to do?  What do I really want to do? These are questions that have been swarming in my head for quite some time, just tried to not 'face it' head on and now I have to deal with it.  For the time being, I'm going to spend a ton of time with my little family and hopefully reconnect with my husband as I believe we need to reconnect and focus on our family and not outside sources.  That is my goal for the time being.  So that's that. On an up note--since this blog is generally dedicated to my weight loss--I am now at 29 lbs. lost (164.7 lbs.).  I a...