Little Footprints

Today celebrates 1 month home. I've had much more adapting than I thought I would need. I'll tell ya, before I thought this 'stay at home mom' would be a piece of cake. Boy was I wrong! I have absolutely no free time (very limited) and the time I do have, I spend at the gym or the library (I know, big hot spots, huh). I am learning how to manage my time better and overall run my house as efficient I can. It's been hard and I'm still shocked that I'm not working, but if this is what He wants for me or thinks I need, than I guess I'll have to abide. :-) My oldest, is at church camp this week and I have maybe talked to her for maybe 20 minutes the whole week--I call every day, only to get a few words and an "I gotta go, can I call you later"....well this morning, she called and we talked for a whole 10 minutes! I can't wait to see her tonight when she sings at the talent show and I get to spend the afternoon tomorrow with her as I play in ...

... I've missed you...It's been so long since I've seen you, I forgot what you looked like.  I hope you stay for a long time (but not too long, cuz I'd like to visit with your neighbor Ms. 140s in the future). I did it, I made it to 159.6 lbs. (34 lbs. lost since January) ( I know that's more than 159, but it doesn't say 1 sixty something, so I'm happy

On Sunday, our Pastor asked for volunteers to write their testimony (200 words or less)--I wanted to raise my hand, but didn't (at first--I told the Pastor I would e-mail it, after the service). Well here it is.  Short and sweet (kind of).  There's so much more to this story, but here are the facts :-)  (and yes, I'm 142 words over the limit--this is hard!!!) My husband and I both grew up without Christ in our lives. I grew up in a loving home, we knew of God, however, I didn't 'talk to Him' until years later. My husband and I were married for about 4 years, when we decided to have children. We agreed our kids would grow up in the church--however, it wasn't something that happened overnight. Our daughter was a little over a year old and I saw that Parents as Teachers was holding a play group at a church and decided to take her there to the playgroup.  That church was so inviting, I even talked with the Pastor, he invited me to church that next Su...

My husband and I attended our church's "Working Class" Bible Study today, something we haven't done in quite some time. During the study, both my husband and I felt comfortable enough to reach out to these people we once called family, after all, this IS where our journey began 7 years ago. After we confessed our sins, so to speak, it was evident that these people, this church, loved us and has forgiven us.  I can honestly say, something changed in my husband and I today.  We are on the road to recovery, on the road back to where we came from, on the road home. I can't express how elated I am that these bonds, these burdens, are now broken. I can't wait to see what the Lord, our God, has in store for me, my husband, our marriage and ultimately our family. Thanks be to God. For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope.  Jeremiah 29:11.

My first week home was good--I still feel like I'm on vacation, but it's OK.  I was really worried that since I was home that I would eat more..for the first time in a long time, I actually had a 2 lb. loss which brings my total pounds lost to 31 (since January).  I have also had a lot of time to reflect on what kind of household I want to raise my kids in--I thought I had it figured out, but this past week, I am on a strong mission to bring order to this house.  From being organized to nutrition, to limiting TV time to even how I interact with my family, it's all going to change.  I went this morning to buy curriculum supplies (in another words, I bought some blocks and finger paints, lol) as I'm going to do some preliminary preschool things with Caleb this fall--I also checked out a book full of neat cheap science projects to do with Bailey for the remainder of the summer.  My husband and I have an exciting 'staycation' coming up in a few weeks, which will...

This is my last 'week' of work.  June 30th is my last day.  I am super excited for this opportunity, yet I'm super depressed about it at the same time.  This was the longest I ever had a job (at the same place), the people here are great and best of all--I loved my job. So yes, I always have to go back to God, during these times.  What does He have in store for me?  What am I really destined to do?  What do I really want to do? These are questions that have been swarming in my head for quite some time, just tried to not 'face it' head on and now I have to deal with it.  For the time being, I'm going to spend a ton of time with my little family and hopefully reconnect with my husband as I believe we need to reconnect and focus on our family and not outside sources.  That is my goal for the time being.  So that's that. On an up note--since this blog is generally dedicated to my weight loss--I am now at 29 lbs. lost (164.7 lbs.).  I a...

As I've said since January--slow and steady wins the race.  It has taken me this long to lose 25 lbs. since January and you know what, I'm ok with that--because it is staying off.  One year ago in June, I weighed about 210bs. (per my doctor's office).--today, I weigh 169.5--that is a 40.5 weight loss since about a year ago. So, what is 25 lbs.??  5 bags of ice (5 lbs. each)....12.5 bags of M&Ms  (the 2 Pounders)...yup, all of that GONE! 40.5 lbs.?  Well that's really easy...my 8 year old weighs about 47 lbs.  so just shy of lil ole Bailey. I have about 40 more I want to lose--so I'm hoping this time next year, I would have reached that goal. Since I have reached this mini goal--I wonder what I should reward myself with....(non-food related). Bring on the ideas!!!