As the Twig is Bent--so grows the tree
So the time is here--today is the first day of 'camp'. I haven't left yet. Sitting on my computer (writing this blog--not to mention, on hold for the IRS--fun, huh?)
Today, I am at peace. I continue to be in this state of mind all week--I pray my husband and I can get through this little rough patch (we have been arguing a lot--I'm supposed to take full blame, cuz I think that is what he wants me to do). I suppose I am sorry, but sometimes the boy annoys the heck out of me. So again, I am at peace (need to remember this, all day--every day)
My goal this week is to show God what he has done to me lately (although he already knows). I am so happy and content--content is a word I think I rarely used. It's an amazing feeling. I can't describe it--but even amidst of this contentment, I still struggle with my relationship with my husband.
Divorce has crossed my mind. I feel that maybe this relationship has run it's course and maybe my new found faith (re-discovered faith) rather is not something he can expect. He keeps saying 'if only THEY knew the real you'. My thought 'they do know the real me--I'm happy when I am around other people...not so much around him'. This is my prayer.
I know I've got this class down 'pat'. I have prayed daily to ensure that God gave me the wisdom and knowledge to teach this class of kids about King David. I also pray that they come away from it with at least half of what I did. I'm teaching 5th and 6th grade (not to mention, my daughter will be in my class--let's hope I don't embarrass her). What I learned most about King David, no matter how powerful you are or how faithful you are to God, you too, can fall from Grace--the best part--God is STILL THERE.
This song has really left a mark on my heart. It is beautiful and explains EVERYTHING.
So maybe that is what I need to take away from this. I need closure God, not in the sense of divorce. I just need my faithful life, my personal life and the life the outside world to be all in harmony. That is my prayer for today.
I am all bent in all sorts of ways--but I am still growing--that is an amazing thing. Now matter how crippled my life is, I am still growing closer to God.
I will continue to write about my week--as I want EVERYONE to feel this sense of peace. I want everyone to know the person you know is the person I am when I'm home, when I'm at church, when I'm at the store, when I was working. I am Kelly Oldridge--this is my story.
Today, I am at peace. I continue to be in this state of mind all week--I pray my husband and I can get through this little rough patch (we have been arguing a lot--I'm supposed to take full blame, cuz I think that is what he wants me to do). I suppose I am sorry, but sometimes the boy annoys the heck out of me. So again, I am at peace (need to remember this, all day--every day)
My goal this week is to show God what he has done to me lately (although he already knows). I am so happy and content--content is a word I think I rarely used. It's an amazing feeling. I can't describe it--but even amidst of this contentment, I still struggle with my relationship with my husband.
Divorce has crossed my mind. I feel that maybe this relationship has run it's course and maybe my new found faith (re-discovered faith) rather is not something he can expect. He keeps saying 'if only THEY knew the real you'. My thought 'they do know the real me--I'm happy when I am around other people...not so much around him'. This is my prayer.
I know I've got this class down 'pat'. I have prayed daily to ensure that God gave me the wisdom and knowledge to teach this class of kids about King David. I also pray that they come away from it with at least half of what I did. I'm teaching 5th and 6th grade (not to mention, my daughter will be in my class--let's hope I don't embarrass her). What I learned most about King David, no matter how powerful you are or how faithful you are to God, you too, can fall from Grace--the best part--God is STILL THERE.
This song has really left a mark on my heart. It is beautiful and explains EVERYTHING.
So maybe that is what I need to take away from this. I need closure God, not in the sense of divorce. I just need my faithful life, my personal life and the life the outside world to be all in harmony. That is my prayer for today.
I am all bent in all sorts of ways--but I am still growing--that is an amazing thing. Now matter how crippled my life is, I am still growing closer to God.
I will continue to write about my week--as I want EVERYONE to feel this sense of peace. I want everyone to know the person you know is the person I am when I'm home, when I'm at church, when I'm at the store, when I was working. I am Kelly Oldridge--this is my story.
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| My husband and I--the way we need to be. |
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