Little Footprints

I can't even explain what this song has done to change me.  It brought me back. It brought me home. I am home. I am His for good. I am being honest.  I have hid for many years.  Hid from my past, hid from my present.  I am facing my fears, facing the darkness. One Day At A  Time

I don't even know where to start except that I need to do better. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Day One!

This is the time where I struggle. Struggle with the food - it's the weekend!! Let's hope I continue on this very long journey for the rest of my life.

My marriage and the tribulations it has gone through is not 'new news'.  It is known I was unfaithful and continued to be unfaithful.  It is also known that my husband forgave me and we continue to grow in a new love for each other.  I make a choice every day to love my husband and my family.  He chooses to forgive me and teaches me unconditional love, daily.  My husband loves me as Jesus does (maybe not as much - but pretty darn close!) Just the other day, my Facebook Timehop reminded me that I struggled 3 years ago.  A post requesting prayer for my kids and myself.  Another stated getting rid of 250 lbs. and even another reminded  me that something terrible had happened between Christmas and New Years 2011. I asked my husband if he re-called what happened 3 years ago, he couldn't remember either.   I literally racked my brain for awhile wondering what in the world could have happened and I got nothing.  The thought quickly left m...

As I turn 37 today, I realize I haven't accomplished as much as I wanted to. By the time my father was 38, he was retired from the military and moved his family across the country back to Kansas where I would live the past 22 years. I always dreamed of living in a beautiful house, my kids going to good schools and me being a stay at home mom.  Reality is, my house is home, my kids have learned to adapt to many different situations that I never in a million years would put them through and I work - in a job I really do enjoy.  I have a career in Human Resources and couldn't imagine doing anything else. I've been with the same man since I was 19 and yes, we may not have the life we envisioned many years ago, it's OK.  We have the life we have.  We love.  That is what we do best.  That is what our children learn from us the most. I told myself about 5 years ago, I would never be a 'big girl' again.  Well at 37, I AM a big girl and I'm OK with ...

In the past year, I have gained over 40 pounds.  I did it so easily.  First, I re-introduced soda in my life, next came the candy, then I quit exercising. I became lazy, I became the girl I tried to hide, the real me.  I am back to hardly no make-up, I quit caring.  I went from having a 'somewhat' balanced life to working 45-50 hours a week (and that's just in the office). I have been dealing with tooth issues for several months and in the past week or so it has turned into the WORST nightmare.  I now look like I 'chew' tobacco as the swelling has just taken over the left side of my face.  I had an epiphany ( an experience of sudden and striking realization).  Why am I back to where I was?  Why did I stop planning meals, exercising, caring? So here it is, November 1st.  I can do this.  I have 60 days before my 37th birthday and I'm gonna give it my all. My 60 day goals Drink Water, no more pop. Walk at least 20-...

I have being denying the fact that milk is not my friend.  I switched to skim many years ago and thought that was healthy.  Skim milk is healthy, just not for me. This morning I started baby steps. I bought cereal and bought Silk Almond Milk Vanilla Light. Can we say yummm!!